Texts: we were trouble

From Radiant Heart MUSH

Texts: we were trouble
Date of Scene: 01 January 2024
Location: Texts
Synopsis: Kyouka texts Fuyuko on New Year's Day. It goes about how you'd expect. (CW: Swearing)
Cast of Characters: Fuyuko Yuuhi, Kyouka Inai


(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:happy new year, you harridan. im having a great night and hope you are lonely and miserable
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: you're probably as hungover as i am you overgrown smudge. happy new year. i am swearing off drinking.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i am hung over yes from when i went out drinking with all my friends last night, it was great
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: now i know you're lying
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: you don't have any friends
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:i have so many friends who arent 16 year olds who cant drink, you have no idea. i wasnt sitting at home getting drunk on beer all alone, why would you even imply that
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: you're still drunk aren't you
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: damn i would consider that pathetic were i not in fact daydrinking the hangover away
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: it's new year's i do what i want fuck you
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i am not drunk, i am comfortably buzzed. did you go to some stupid corpo party or what
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: absolutely not i am not spending time with those people when i don't have to.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i drank alone in my apartment like a real adult.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:youre a real piece of work, you know they say if you drink alone it means you have a problem
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i think we both know i have a lot more than one problem
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: remember that new years when we were 15 and we got drunk on shochu and blew up that food cart
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: that food cart deserved it and i'll always be sure of that
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: you remember the one when we were 14 and a youma tried to eat clover tower? still think we should have let it take a bite out of it first.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: it was bullshit because how come we dont get holidays off, everybody else was off but we still had to work
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: monsters have no respect
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:do we?
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: absolutely not but we earned that righgt
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: no fuck a typo.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:yeah i guess
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:do you ever wish we had a normal teenagerhood? you know, going to the shrine on new years with family and like having KFC and not fighting monsters or whatever
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: no because that person would not be me.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: yeah
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i guess it wouldnt
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i am who i am and that includes fighting monsters on new years and drunkenly destroying food carts. everything we did is part of who i am.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: have another drink so you stop being maudlin.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i just wonder if there comes a point where being who i am isnt good enough anymore
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:but youre right... better just to get drunk and not think about it
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: not like you can be anyone else.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: drink drink drink
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: im not so sure about that, tbh. but i dont expect you to understand
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: if you could be someone else you would.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: we're only ever who we always are.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:i would? thanks for the vote of confidence. also that last line makes zero sense youre drunker than i am
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i never claimed otherwise
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: pretty sure i said i was day drinking. if i didn't. this is your memo.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: don't worry about the rest. you wouldnn't get it.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i wouldnt get it? really? now who's being maudlin
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i get you, fuyuko. i just dont always like you very much
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: right back at you
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i have the market cornered on maudlin.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: bullshit you do. you just like to dress in black so people think you're a sad sack
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: it works too
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: wear colors and they think you're like some helpful good samaritan
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: being helpful is our entire job description, you realize
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: yeah and im helpful to chuuni ass losers
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: wow harsh.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i support their dumbassery and themm being themselves because at least then they'll have fun and whatever but i am not blind to their choices.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: you enable bad behavior because you value independence more than respect.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: someone once told me i stand for sincerity and respect. that those are my virtues. you know what yours are? freedom and composure. you chart your own path and you do it with self-assurance. i've always admired that about you. even when it drives me up the wall
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: (typing) (typing) (typing) thanks. whoever told you that was right. you might be annoying and self-righteous, but you're always sincere and you always conduct yourself with respect. here's to another year. keep doing that. champagne emoji
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:im gonna try. and you, dont let anyone tie you down. thats why i dont get this corpo job of yours. you always wanted to do your own thing. being a cog in a big people-eating machine.. it doesnt suit you. imo
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: it never did us any good to not know where trouble was coming from.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i know the trouble by name, now. i sit in boardroom meetings with the trouble.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: yeah and you hire their minions for them! you are part of the trouble
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i wish i hired these kids it would make their paperwork easier. they just show up and need to get benefits and then it turns out their start date was six weeks ago.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: we both know i've been trouble for a long time. there's always people the side of sparkly friendship doesn't suit. kids who have ambition and want to grab their world with both hands. if i'm stuck babysitting, i might as well be in a spot between them and queen furniture out the window.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:you weren't trouble fuyuko /we/ were trouble. don't play martyr with me. but our trouble served a good cause. even if people didnt like how we went about it, we were helping keep people safe. i... shit. maybe i should just trust you more. those kids are probably better off listening to you than they would be without you
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: it's not martyring. we were trouble for good, and then i was trouble for my own purposes. there are always kids who go south. they might as well have someone who can tell when they're being a dumbass and when they're committed to trouble.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: is this sentiment i'm seeing
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: just respect. like i said. and practicality. i dont want to change you, fuyuko. i just dont want to have to fight you, either. for real, i mean.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: ... i don't want to fight you either, kyouka. not anymore.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: we've finished with that. we've bigger things to fight.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:i know that. im just worried that if things continue on this way eventually we wont have a choice.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: because the dark is a disaster? you know i'm not here for their win. technically, you're not supposed to be looking for a win either, but hey.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i dont believe in this whole 'sides' thing anyway and you know it. i believe in people. i want people to be able to live their lives and be safe and happy without other people fucking it up for them.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: what im worried about is that some of the kids you're helping chase their dreams are going to fuck up some other people's lives in the process and my kids are going to try to stop them and then we're both going to end up defending our points of view violently
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: very likely to happen. your kids want people safe, my kids want to do their thing.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: but at the end of the day as long as they aren't killing each other i'm not going to throw down with you.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: though on that note i did hear a rumor that one of yours is killing people now. disintegrating with her headgear or something?
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: the point is, i don't believe people can live perfectly happy lives as long as whatever bullshit makes magic happen in the first place exists. there's always going to be something. the something might as well be someone who wants to see the world be something else.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:we covered that already, no she didnt. but it doesnt matter anyway. you can't compare monster attacks to actual dark mahou plots. one is like a natural disaster. it sucks but its no one's fault. one is a choice made by a person. i know you value the ability to make that choice. so do i. but i also value consequences. and im not above creating them
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i'm not against consequences.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:you're against consequences for you
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: if the consequence of their goal is they have to face you and yours then they're going to have to be strong enough to get through you all.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i'm not against consequences for me. i'm against the shit system of this world. i don't think these people are worth dying for.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i don't think their peace or their lives were worth any of it and i never will. they weren't worth it.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: so i won't ever encourage anyone to do anything less than whatever the fuck they want with their power, and i'll be sure they understand what that means.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: so why is the life of some selfish brat you trained worth it? what makes them any better? you know, if they think their precious ambition or freedom or whatever the fuck is worth more than some random person just trying to make it through the day and its ok to mess up that person's life because its worthless to them, then im sorry but theyre wrong. they are worthless. your kids are worthless. they are worth less than the people they routinely endanger.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: it's not about being better kyouka that's what you never understood. it's not about being better than those people it's about the fact that they're going to BE those people in a few years and if they want to pursue something else and try and make this world better in a way that those blind fools can't then they might as well. i'm not like you. i'm not going to keep training them to die for an endless fucking war.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: and can keep off your fucking high horse because the worst thing any of them has ever done to some precious mundane is knock them on their ass for a few days from energy drain. oh no its so scary they had fatigue for a while how terrible.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:im not training anyone to die! im training them to survive! you know what isnt survivable? the fucking world ending, or some asshole blowing up tokyo, or somebody shooting out your soul or some monster eating your life force! all of that kills you! you cant make the world better by hurting people. i refuse to accept that.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: you're training them to keep fighting endless threats that we both know haven't fucking stopped since before we were kids. you can't make the world better.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: the world doesn't get better.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: fighting to throw their lives down the shitter for someone else who will never know or care about what they did.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: yeah but if nobody fights those threats then everybody loses anyway, fuyuko. if the world ends, or even just the city blows up or something, you're all shit out of luck too
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:sitting back being like 'not my problem' while other people risk their lives to save /your/ ass is the height of self-entitled bullshit and i hate it
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: if the world ends then we all get to get off the fucking ride.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: wouldn't that be something.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: let me tell you something fuyuko there's no getting off
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: not for everybody
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: there's always jumping to the next ride.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: there's always something else.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: which is going to be exactly as shitty if you continue to not give a fuck about maintaining it!
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: that's always been your problem. you think if someone's not on your side they must just be sitting on their ass and not caring, you think if they don't agree with you its because they're some careless idiot
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: you talk about going not my problem while other people risk their lives to save ass - what the FUCK do you think every FUCKING mundane on this fucking planet gets to do EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY kyouka
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: all they fucking do is blissfully walk around unaware and depending on these fucking kids to save their lives. why should these kids do that? why should they bleed and break for this endless bullshit?
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:i dont care if they agree with me but i care if they get in my way! isnt that what you're on about? freedom, making your own path? if you get in my way then you are a careless idiot! IM trying to help people, and i will not respect anyone who decides their own fucking entertainment is worth more than that
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:The mundanes dont have a choice fuyuko. they arent willfully choosing ignorance, its their only option
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:nobody deserves to die without a choice
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: and that's why i never tried to stop YOU from helping those fucking people. you always think its about entertainment. you always think its about jokes. sometimes its not fucking ABOUT that.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: people die every fucking day without a choice about it. not even the richest bastard alive can guarantee a choice about dying.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:bullshit! you tried to stop me when you wanted to hurt people and i wanted to stop you doing it. or did you forget the fist-sized hole you put through my shoulder?
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: HA you mean you tried to stop ME. you wanted to stop me. i wanted to kill those people.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:alright fine let me rephrase that then, nobody deserves to die because of someone else's choice.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: and yeah i was out of my fucking head and i wanted to kill them as much as i wanted to fucking die. i made choices then. some of them i regret. some of them i would take back. but if you want to worry about people dying because of choices why don't you go campaign against social issues.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: no one deserves to have someone die for them. no one is worth that.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: no one deserves to have someone bleed for them. suffer for them.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:i dont hold that against you fuyuko. really i dont. you were out of your head and i get that. what i have trouble with is why you never came back. i would have forgiven you then.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: you say you don't beleive in sides but you always act like working here must mean i want the fucking world to end instead of it being the best way to reach the people i need to train to keep up MY end of the fucking bargain. your bullshit school that didn't give a single flying fuck about any of us isn't big enough for the both of us.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i never wanted to come back. you think i want your forgiveness? i made my choices. i did what i did. i am who i am for everything i've ever done and i regret nothing.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:i dont care about this school. its convenient, same as your fucking corpo overlords.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: then stop fucking judging me for working for a fucking corporation. we live in tokyo! it's 80% corporations!
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:i wanted you to come back! i cant do this shit by myself fuyuko, its too much. you left me alone and i havent forgiven you for that yet. its not about the corporation. its not about the /job/. its about realizing you were such a fucking prick as a kid you had exactly one real friend and now you have none and you can't figure out which of you is still the prick and which of you has a point
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: we were BOTH pricks
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: we were both fucking insufferable assholes and we always were and i couldn't come back because you don't understand that just because i think i was wrong now doesn't mean i REGRET what i did
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: we have always been insufferably fucked up assholes and there's a reason its just the two of us now and i can't fight the good fight when i don't believe in it.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:i dont want you to fight 'the good fight'. i just dont want you to fight the bad one. but the reason it's just the two of us is because we're the ones who were willing to sell our souls to not have to be normal. i admit it but im not proud of it. i dont believe in this fight. not the way the boss man wants me to. all i want is to not be irrelevant. if im screaming i want to be heard
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: you drive me so fucking insane.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i'm not with obsidian because i believe in their goals. i don't care about their goals. i care about knowing where the threat is coming from
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: so that if it's bad enough i can tell you.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: because *you* care.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: we sold our souls and i dont regret it and i'm not ashamed of it because you know me too well and still don't know me at all. i don't care about this war never ending. i care about being me. i care about knowing myself. i care about not losing what's mine. we fought for this. we bled for this. it's ours by right and i don't care who i have to put up with to have what's mind.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: omg thats such self-serving denial shit fuyuko. you are NOT working there to be my personal spy against the bad guys, thats the stupidest thing ive ever heard you say. youre there because it lets you fulfill the terms of our bargain and it pays well and you dont have to care about the actual responsibility having power should make you feel.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: you're there because you're a rich little bitch who never quite understood what it means to give something up. you're there because the facade means more to you than the substance. you're there because you won't let me save you
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i'm not here to be JUST your spy you fucking dumbass
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: but if you think i didn't think, wow, i can actually have an apartment i like and afford the lifestyle i like and also keep an eye on a disturbingly large number of the kind of people who actively made our lives hell for our entire childhood, and intervene when necessarily and have the opportunity to throw you at an especially stupid problem when it shows up
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: then you're a complete fucking idiot. as always.
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: you're always i dont need to be saved. i've never wanted to be saved. you've always thought you had to be a hero to everyone you've always thought you know best you've always been an insufferable egotist who felt like you had to save the world and why? are you trying to justify that endless storm of shit you've lived through?
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: do you think if you're a big enough hero it will make all the suffering worth it?
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: i've never needed to be saved. there's no substance to bleeding and suffering for someone. no special virtue in dying for the cause.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i think that im going to die, fuyuko, and when i do i want to feel like it was worth it. not for /me/. for everyone who knew me. i want to leave my mark on this world and not in a way that will make people look back and go 'boy that chick sure was an asshole', in the way that people will remember me with some modicum of fondness after im dead, which lets be honest, could be next week.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:so yes i will suffer and i will bleed and it will be worth it if people remember me as someone who at least tried to make a difference
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: and that doesn't matter either. the dead are the dead and it doesn't matter what anyone thinks after you're gone.
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts:it matters to me
(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: goodnight fuyuko
(PHONE) Fuyuko Yuuhi texts: goodnight kyouka.