Texts: i dont intend to start lying

Texts: i dont intend to start lying
Date of Scene:	03 January 2024
Location:	Texts
Synopsis:	Kyouka and Mamoru text about philosophy until Sunbreaker kidnaps Setsuna.
Cast of Characters:	Mamoru Chiba, Kyouka Inai

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(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: hey mamoru

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: do you think i'm doing a good thing? in general. do i help?

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: yesssss doesnt get old

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: uh? i mean, i sure hope so otherwise wtf am i even doing

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: yes you help, jeez

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: why?

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i just had a big fight with my best friend and she told me im just training kids to die for people who dont deserve to be saved

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: and like.. i dont agree. but it helps to hear it from someone other than myself

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: you're not training kids to die. especially not for people who dont deserve to be saved

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: lets deconstruct this piece by piece

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: you're training kids in self-defense and in fighting

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: youre not handing out henshin devices this is kids who are already fighting

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: they are gonna fight whether you want them to or not

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: they are gonna decide whether or not they want to die no matter what you want

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i think you just had an object lesson in that (sorry)

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: as far as the 'deserve to be saved' thing goes

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i did a shitty thing to zoisite, tanking for him when his gut instinct is to tank for me

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: he's one of your bros, that's different

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: if i had died he would have had to have lived with that

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: no no, hear me out

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: ok im hearing

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: it doesn't matter whether or not we decide someone deserves to be saved. like, that doesn't matter. the only thing we have control of is our own actions. we dont control what other people do with their lives before or after we keep them from getting bricked

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: if we keep them from getting bricked, we're doing that because its the right thing to do

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: if we die doing it, we miscalculated or have a death wish

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i mean the 'we dont get to choose who gets saved and who doesn't' thing is messy anyway, because not one single human being is unbiased, and we will eventually make that choice, all of us

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: but looking at it from as objective a place as i can get to, if someone believes everyone should have a chance

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: they're deciding that everyone deserves to be saved

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i don't think anyone *deserves* to be saved. 'deserves' is such a loaded word

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: basically i think your friend is full of shit, sorry

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i do what i want :D

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: yeah okay i know that but like.. i also think shes full of shit. dont get me wrong. thats why we had what amounts to a text message screaming fight on new years day.. well also because we were both drinking but

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: you're helping kids do what they want to do

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: she thinks that mahous have power in order to realize whatever dreams they want and they shouldnt be obligated to use that power to help people

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: and she thinks that by telling them otherwise that im denying them freedom and setting them up to waste their potential for the sake of others

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: instead of using it for themselves

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: and like.. i dont disagree? like i really dont disagree

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: sounds like she believes that kids who want to use their power to help people should be told to do what they don't want

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: but i also dont really think that its a choice so much as an obligation

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: people with power should use it to better the world, not just themselves

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i believe that. i just sometimes question whether imparting my beliefs with conviction is misleading

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i dont think so? i mean like. when i think youre full of shit i tell you so

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i know you do. but for example.. when usagi first got her powers as sailor moon and came to me she told me she didnt want to do this. that it was scary and dangerous and she'd rather just pretend she didnt have these powers

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: and i told her that having that power gave her a responsibility to use it

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: and she's done great and i think for her that is the right choice

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: but i just dont know if its the right choice for everyone

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: and if im somehow culpable if i lead someone down a path thats not right for them

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i dont think it would have made a difference if you told her to go ahead and pretend she didnt have powers, because of the kind of person she is.

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i think she would have done it again and again, but without your conviction on her side

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: and i think if you tell someone the same thing you told her and theyre NOT the same kind of person she is

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: they might try for a while but not commit. or they might go dark side because they're pissy that they got told what to do

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i think telling the truth is worth the gamble. i mean maybe not everyone can tell if youre lying but i sure can

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: and i think telling the truth makes it easier to trust you for backup

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i also think that the people who ask you questions are looking for the kind of answers you give

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: im saying a lot of i think and i don't think. i should speak with conviction! >:o

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: no, i also dont think in usagi's case it would have made a difference. i think that because of who she is she would help people regardless of what i said

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: and the vast majority of the kids you talk to are the same. the ones who are not aren't gonna do what you advise anyway

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: sum up: if you want kids to come to you for advice keep telling the truth

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i dont intend to start lying

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: good

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: if there's one thing that you can say about me its that i say what i really think. i am the knife-edged truth, etc etc. sincerity.

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: yes :)

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: but you know we have these fights, and she says stuff that /makes sense/ and in the moment it makes me so mad and i think part of what makes me so mad is that it /does/ make sense

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: and it escalates and i get more mad and i say dumb stuff but then afterwards when im by myself i think back on it and i begin to wonder if i should be so quick to just say 'you're wrong and i'm right'

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i don't think i'm wrong. but it helps to have someone else tell me so too

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: you said she says that people should use power for themselves, for what they want

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: so i'll say it again: you talk to kids who want to use power to help others

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: what *I* think is that youre both really arrogant to think that you can change our minds lol

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: yeah i know. i just wonder if id recognize sincere desire to help others vs. someone who claims they want to help others because they feel its expected of them

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i also dont know if i think that matters?

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: but id feel a little bad about it

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i think you recognise it even when it's hidden in a metric fuckton of dark energy

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: you only think that because you and the people around you are strong-willed and have convictions of your own. not everybody is like that you know. some people actually need to be guided

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i have a nose for potential

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: right. so trust it.

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: trust yourself young padawan

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i dont need to hear that from you

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: except i guess i do or i wouldnt have texted you

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: :D you texted me

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: :D :D :D :D :D

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i think.. maybe.. now that all this shit is over and you're home and things are marginally calmer

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i think maybe its time i told you and some of the others a little bit about myself

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: it'll be good for kazuo to hear, idk how much he trusts you yet. he used to think you were in a cult lmao

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: yeah but he thought you were too

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: yeah but i was

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i dont like to think of what would have happened if i hadnt already been coming out of the brainwashing

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: me either

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: anyway that is so like you, for me to be like "im going to talk about my mysterious past" and instead of you being like "oh boy I wanted to know about that" youre like "i bet kazuo wants to know about that" you disinterest feigning jerk

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: anyway things are only marginally calmer. my room got magically flooded, i had to stay over at kazuo's for a few days. so like yes tell us but like. keep in mind that if you tell us 'so i used to smoke rock' we'll be like 'that tracks' and then something will explode and we'll be like 'dont listen to her she used to smoke rock'

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: someone magically flooded your room? that seems.. surprisingly petty and pointless

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: anyway things are calmer in that there is no imminent apocalypse. there will be one again i know but /right now/ we're not possibly all going to die anytime soon that we know about so that counts as calmer

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: exactly one half of the room. my half. like exactly. perfectly. it had to be one of beryl's and i probably know which one. --AHHH thats what you mean! ok sure. also how tf do you know what is like me, is that going to be part of your mysterious past

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: im not spilling all of my secrets, only some of them. suffice it to say you're not a stranger to me. and that still seems petty and pointless, wouldnt beryl want actual revenge and not just to minorly inconvenience you?

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: thats what im saying like

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i dont think thats the end of it

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: knowing what i know about the situation i would be surprised if it was, yes

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: dw i know she wants me either re-brainwashed or dead. but i would rather not think of this as like her playing with her food bc i am not food, so let me just say 'i dont think this is the end of it' lmao

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: anyway do you want to do like. stellar storytime

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: jam everyone in your office

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: reveal your astonishing origin story

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i know but it just seems like dumb to do something transparent and yet not at all actually dangerous or accomplishing anything its like tipping your hand, thats not the proper way to revenge. well i guess if our enemies are bad at vengeance thats good for us so i should just be grateful

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: no i want to invite a small group of people i trust to my home and tell them the story of my fucked up youth because its reached the point where i feel disingenuous pretending to be something im not

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: what are you pretending to be? o.O

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: some kind of hero, a responsible adult, a guidance counselor

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: take your fucking pick man

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i think anyone who has talked to you for longer than like 10 minutes knows youre at least not the last two. the first one is as up for debate as any of the rest of us

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: its just.. ahh i dunno. this last row with fuyuko really threw me, i dunno. they dont usually, i guess maybe cause it was new years and then with all this other shit thats been going on

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: im a little tired of feeling like shes the only one who knows me because shes a bitch and i want to strangle her but if i do that then nobody will really know me

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: thats fair

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: so after you tell us you can strangle her :thumbsup:

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: she made me do sensitivity training after i stabbed sunbreaker >:C

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: thats because shes always mistaken justice for persecution

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: LMAO

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: im sorry i didnt really think about the fact that you probably knew her. i guess that makes sense

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: hahaha. it's ok. she had to put up with 14yo me crying on her when someone died on my watch and it was so awkward. after that i stayed out of trouble mostly until sunbreaker, and like, you dont complain about your director to hr

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: yeah well she's my old partner. shes like a sister to me. in that i want to kill her constantly but i cant bring myself to actually do it

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: well that's awkward, i was gonna say you're like a sister to me, but i don't want to kill you

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: so i guess you're not

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: im not suggesting that sisters all incite murderous feelings just that generally you restrain yourself from killing them even when they do

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: thats fair! ok youre like a sister to me

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: also, that sounds cool. also... you should write it down. your stuff.

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: in addition to spilling almost all your secrets to us.

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: im happy to be a sister to you. just feels weird being the big sister

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: im not good at writing

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: ...or reading, really

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i'm good at writing, ill see what i can do

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: well you can sometimes pretend to be a little sister ig but thats weird bc im 16 and also i have one already. so you can keep py-tan company

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: maybe. im not sure its a story worth writing down. i guess thats for you to judge

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: no i just meant

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i dont often feel like the mature together grown-up i appear to be

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: dw you dont appear to be one

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: well then you see what i mean. anyway its not important

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i am honored to be considered as a sister to you, my prince

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: omg

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i have no idea even how to take that like how am i your prince are you trying to swear fealty or something because i havent even decided on how i feel about having tried to pull at oaths with the guys, what do you MEAN your prince

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: chill the fuck out dude i was busting your chops

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: thank fuck

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: do i really seem like the fealty swearing type, cmon

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: I DONT KNOW you havent told your secret history yet

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: its not a secret, its only a secret because the Fade is a thing and everyone forgot

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: im just tired of people not knowing

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: of all the things fuyuko says that is the one that has some merit. it feels bad doing all the shit we did and not having anyone remember

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: and im not saying that because i want recognition or like, accolades

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i just dont want history erased

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: I dont want to forget

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: nobody wants to.. ok thats a lie. most people dont want to forget.

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: I mean I really really don't want to forget

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: yeah i dont think youre lying. i dont want to forget either

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: it would be a bitch to die and then come back and remember having forgotten, too

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: being one of only two people from your generation thats still alive and still remembers a large chunk of your life is surreal, let me tell you

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: i mean at least you do have yuuhi-san otherwise you'd just think you were nuts probably

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: no because i have all of you lot to help convince me that magic and monsters are real

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: if i still remembered but i couldnt see magic anymore then id probably think i was nuts

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: for the record shes not nearly as bad as most of the ppl at obs

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: and she is probably glad to see me go

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: shes not a bad person

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i still believe that firmly

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: shes just suffered a lot and its made her bitter and angry

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: oh fully. but you can be awful and still not inherently be a bad person

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: i wouldnt know anything about that

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: you can also be a bad person and still mean well.

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: hahaha

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: shes been my best friend since we were 12. we had a 'trying to kill each other' period but we got over it. i cant imagine my life without her, but at the same time, she works for the enemy. so its complicated

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: dont worry i didnt tell her any secrets tho

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: lmao ty

(20 minutes later)

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: btw sunbreaker just stole nurse meiou, wheres that cabin you and neph found naru's stuff in?

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: she did what? the fuck is wrong with that girl, and after i just broke her nose too...fuck i hope this isnt indirectly my fault

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: anyway sending you the GPS coords

(PHONE) Mamoru Chiba texts: ty ty. i dont think so she said 'yeet i mean yoink' and didnt seem angry

(PHONE) Kyouka Inai texts: thats a first, in my experience she has two modes, angry and blubbering pathetically